Will you please answer this question? A matter of life and death.?
Question by thinkstraight27: Will you please answer this question? A matter of life and death.?
I don’t know what’s happening, but I came really close to committing suicide yesterday.
It just seems that life has lost a lot of its luster.
I turn on the radio and all the music sounds the same, nothing great like what they had in the 80’s, you know. You cannot make consensual love to a woman without worrying about getting her pregnant or contracting an STD. What’s even worse is how quickly women open their legs today. Before you had to prove your worth to a woman before she would even consider you as her significant other or an intimate partner, but now you meet a woman and you’re with her the same night. And she’s the one who has the condom, not you.
They’ve taken away the challenge, and consequently the sense of sharing, trust and excitement that comes with any form of intimacy.
All the food tastes artificial, the sun stings you instead of warming you up and when you breathe the air feels stale. I don’t know if parents want you to live your dreams or their unfulfilled ones. And work makes you feel more like a slave than anything else. I mean, I just wanted to produce drugs that prevent illnesses such as leprosy and cholera and distribute it to poor nations for free or at the lowest possible cost, but since this dream won’t pay my bills, I work at a factory manufacturing products which no doubt play a role in global warming. So yes, our industries are destroying the earth and I’m part of it. God, the guilt. And God, are you even there anymore?
Well, I went to the beach yesterday, and strangely, I had this impulse to end it all. I wanted to strip myself naked and just float away and let the sea carry me wherever it wanted. I wanted to close my eyes and think of nothing and just smell the ocean and feel the water massage me and be one with the rhythm of the waves. Then, the last thing I wanted to see before I drugged myself was not the face of someone I love, but the sunset! A Hawaii style, emblazoned, fervent with color sunset!
Then, I would drift away into non-existence and be free. I’ve never felt so afraid and so happy at the same time. If I didn’t have family members who would’ve missed me, I’m sure I would have done it. What the f*ck is this, you know? I’ve never felt this way before. Does anyone ever feel like this sometimes? What the hell should I do, because I’m freaking out?
Best answer:
Answer by Faith
gotta talk to someone and im sure your aware of that if you wanna kill yourself
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