does everyone find their calling?

by cstmweb

Question by JohnZ: does everyone find their calling?
I wouldn’t call myself a natural born slacker, I’ve always been an active kid. But I do slack. I want to be successful. I don’t know in what. I just know I want to be successful. I’ve started on a few things, but I’ve quite them all. I’ve wanted to do other things, but I’ve been too afraid of what others will think. I lack self confidence in certain areas. I think I’m not as smart as others. I think I’m unlikable too. This limited way of thinking as prevented me from trying out cool things like auditioning for a movie (I’m not an actor but I live in Los Angeles so why not). I have reasons. I was in special ed all throughout my school life, and I dropped out in the 10th grade. My friends rejected me from their circle, and I don’t have any friends now. I’m 28 and I feel like I am a total loser. I don’t feel smart enough and I don’t feel likeable enough. Eveyday that goes by without me achieving anything of significance taxes my self esteem. My interests are constantly changing. I was thinking of becoming a music producer/make music and make beats but then I read about how all the famous music producers started making music when they were really young. That discouraged me and I changed my mind. Another time I thought I wanted to be a screen writer but then I found out that only 400 out of 10,000 screen plays ever get produced. That discouraged me and it changed my mind. I can go on and on about what I thought I wanted to do and what caused me to change directions but I don’t want to be here all day. If I had one wish it would be to find something that I really love to do that I can do well and that pays well so it can take care of me for the rest of my life. I envy celebrities and recording artists and people who seem to be living their dream. Not because they are living their dream, but because they were able to find their calling at an early age.

Best answer:

Answer by 4udr3y
Don’t stop searching… for the right things.

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