Q&A: Mr. perfect, how can I compare?

Question by Kellie: Mr. perfect, how can I compare?
I love my brother, he’s awesome.
My whole life he’s always been basically my best friend (my dad’s job made us move ALL the time so we’d live in a town for maybe a year at most and then move so it was just too hard after a while to keep friends).
We’ve always done everything together for the most part.
We both learned instruments together, we had a lot of the same friends in high school and we’ve always volunteered at the same places and whatnot.
He’s 22. I just turned 20 and I recently realized that it’s time to have my own life.
See, up until now there’s not really been much point. I’ve been attending school and everything and just kind of going with the flow of life.
Well, I don’t have much to show for it (this summer I can get my degree, but that’s really bringing me no comfort anymore).
I don’t even have a job anymore. Our hours got cut and so I’ve been out of a job.
I am single… it didn’t bother me at first but I guess when I lost the job it kind of hit me that I have like nothing going for me at all.
I live in my parents house again and I feel like I rely on everyone for everything. My dad’s happy that I finally get to spend time with him (because he’s retired so now we actually get to spend time with each other unlike my childhood where his job kept us apart all the time) but I want to be my own person. I don’t want to have to rely on him for things anymore and my mom and I really, really don’t get along (she’s a perfectionist… I’m not her idea of perfection, I guess).
My brother, on the other hand is this shinning example! He’s basically perfect and my whole family and all of our peers know it.
He can play amazing music to the likes of which I don’t know if I ever will (it just comes so naturally to him…), he’s funny, he’s charismatic, he’s got a pretty girlfriend (who is soon to be his fiance it looks like) who’s “successful”, everyone LOVES him, he’s considered a saint by everyone who’s known him for more than five minutes, he drives a nice car, he’s completely debt free, he’s got an AMAZING job and he just got a promotion and a raise… did I mention he’s only 22? He just got a grant by his work to pay for his college so he JUST started this semester even though his life is basically already set… the doors are never closed for him… I mean, if he were to quit tomorrow, grab a guitar or something and start touring the country with no plan whatsoever, I bet you anything that this time next year he’d be on MTV or something… his life is perfect.
And I’m not saying that he’s pretending or anything. In fact, I have many many more wonderful things that I could say about him. I love him dearly and he really is one of the most amazing, inspirational people I’ve ever known… it’s just so hard to compare to him.
Everyone expects him to be amazing and effortlessly but I (the one who has actually tried and worked to be successful in life) feel like nothing. I feel like I climb the ladder only to have someone push me right back off…
What’s worse is this job search is getting harder and harder. I live in such a small location and jobs are very scarce here because everyone’s holding on to them.
I just feel like I’ve been dealt the short straw or something…

I mean, I have talents, I have things that I’m good at and dreams (I want to be a writer and director. I also want to own my own clothing company)… but it just feels so hopeless right now. I have no money or even a small lead of where to look for an opportunity… I just feel so… useless especially when my brother and I are in the same room with one another and especially when my mother has anything to say about it…
I want someone to be proud of me finally.
I want someone to say something about me other than “you’re a pretty face” or “I love your sense of fashion”…. these things are not important, especially when you’re only known as “(my brother’s name)’s little sister who dresses so pretty”… I’m sick of it. I want to be a real person in the eyes of everyone else. Not some dress up doll or little girl..
I want to have money and a real relationship and a real LIFE where I’m achieving my real dreams! I’m so sick of this “transitional” phase.

So what do I do? I’m stuck. I’m lost. I’m tired…

Best answer:

Answer by nil
hi your quetion is your answer itself,you dont need any one to help you yor are jst look with in you and you get your answer. i must say you are very talented and beutiful girl and one day you will be make proud your parents truely,you jst need some time to think so,first never compare your personality with your bro ys,its good you admire your elder one but dont compare first thing your two diffrent gender and he is elder and he got that freedom which you dont you he got everythg which he needs but you have lots of difficulty to get any thing and always remember sometime people can proof them better in pressure and face challenges thats the life and i am suer you will proff yourself you have that sprit so gooo on.

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