Suddenly don’t know who I am; don’t know what I want?

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I was always completely ambitious, determined & passionate about my blossoming career. I’m a singer, and I recently auditioned for a competition in my state that is like American Idol. I made the first round of 30 finalists, and I was ecstatic. I have many things coming up, like a movie audition, and a record label contract that has yet to be signed once I complete my demo. Then, on Monday, I went to New York for a photoshoot. When it was done, I found myself quite upset & about to have an anxiety attack. I usually love the city, but I felt so smothered in it, and like I didn’t belong. I was born in the country, and I suddenly felt a compulsion to be back there rather than where I was. I felt like I didn’t want to sing anymore, or do this anymore. It was all very strange. I thought the feeling would pass, but it hasn’t. I feel like I don’t know who I am right now, or what I want.
and yesterday I was at the recording studio for my demo and everyone was getting angry with my because I wasn’t doing my best. i really couldnt help it; I don’t know why this is happening. I still know deep down that I want this so bad, but fjalksdjfkld i dont know. I’m so confused.
THANKS SO MUCH EVERYONE THAT ANSWERED!!! you all really helped me to a great extent! i cant thank you enough. i know the feelings wont pass right away, but i am now ready to deal with them and stop thinking rationally, but rather start thinking emotionally. thanks again; youre all amazing <3 also, this may sound dumb but.. i am 14 and i've been a blonde for my whole life. im ready for a change - i want to be a brunette. but my mom and the other people in my management like 'circle' wont let me because they think blonde is more appealing. i dont because alot of the young starlets are/were blondes! christina, britney, paris, hilary duff was, lindsay lohan is now, etc. and i just want a change with my hair! that is another reason why i am mad, because nobody is letting me control my image. and i am NOT going to do this if i cant be myself. Best answer:

Answer by alex a
you need to go to the church u need find on you heart what do you want!!!

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